later that night
i held an atlas in my lap
ran my fingers across the whole world
where does it hurt?
i push away people that try to get close to me for no reason, and when i do, i miss them
a lot and everything reminds me of them and how cool they are and how happy they made me and it really makes me wonder why did i even push them away in the first place
The worst part is, is that I always do this and I hate myself for it.